Really cool concept and *ahem* execution. I know it's far from complete but the details and soul that went into this is truly sublime. I love the little things like how the tutorial teaches the player a completely different kind of game, just like the machine. It feels like a primal security system trying its best to solve problems it can barely comprehend.
This game was a WIP that I eventually plan to go back to.
Unfortunately after HFTGOOM it was a little too intense to work on so it is currently resting.
I’m glad that you still enjoyed it despite that!
The game is based on my experiences being like “wow I’m really upset and existing is hard but my heart keeps doing its best to keep me alive regardless of how I feel” and my desire to emphasize with those muscles and organs that keep fighting for us every day.
One day I would like to go back and finish this, unfortunately it was rushed out before it was ready.
The reality is that I’m not sure how much longer I can continue to make games. Currently there are two games I became a game developer to make, one was hftgoom. The other one is the current one I am working on.
After I finish that one I plan to return to this and finish it though it might end up looking very different from this draft as I will be a different person at that point.
I am sorry to let you down a little but im running into the limitations I have as a person so I’m trying to prioritize what I can.
hey this game has really managed to stick with me since i first played it (i think pretransition!?) I love the writing, and i really like the (literal and unwilling) weaponization of transfem bodies as a metaphor to process the way people can view us sometimes. I don't know if thats exactly how you meant it, but theres so much that can be done with this :) Its a really inspiring story/demo! thanks for making this!
This was really great writing and I felt it was funny as well as heartwarming and thought-provoking. I know it was a rough demo, but seeing your little dev notes peppered throughout added charm to it. But your writing is really amazing!
Hi, your comment really made my day. Thank you for being so nice!
I attempted to make a game in time for a bundle and failed after going through a bunch of concepts. I tried to finish this but fell into major roadblocks.
There was a game I started before this one which I am now close to finishing. I'm hoping to release it before June. After that I plan to go back to this game and finish it.
Until then, thank you so much for enjoying what is a really rough work in progress. I hope that someday I'll be able to show you the finished game even if it might turn out differently from the current one.
I'm glad I had that effect on you, you should feel commended for your effort! 😊
I don't know anything about game dev, but if it's like any creative pursuits, then always remember that tomorrow is a day closer to a completed idea. You will get there and I will hope and pray for your luck.
And even if you don't get there... What does it matter? Creativity is about creating. You've created, even if you haven't finished it. And that is better than to have never started at all.
I look forward to seeing this game finished though, even if it may be totally different. 🥰
I just played through this. I love the sense of time jumps as the weapons system, that you're only brought out during the fight/flight response, and always without time to explain what happened in the meantime, or the context of why you're here, right now; and the body you're riding is always unwelcome to your presence.
Thank you so much for this comment. This reminds me of why I really love this game. I plan on finishing it but I've been a mess.
I desperately want to love my body that keeps trying to keep me alive no matter how upset I get and this game was kind of a love letter to that. I'm really glad that you get it, I hope you will play the full version once it's finished, whatever form it takes.
I love that this basically takes the "I didn't ask for this" Deus Ex meme and turns it into a compelling exploration of bodily autonomy, technocratism, and the politics of self-harming. Very interested in the full release.
Thank you so much, I don't really know what that meme is but I get what you mean. I guess I just kinda felt that we have a lot more technology these days but everyone is just miserable and end up feeling helpless. If knowledge is power and we have access to unlimited information why isn't it helping? We are at the peak of access to tech that's unprecedented in history and we're all just kinda flailing around with it instead.
At the same time I wanted to try to learn to love the part of my brain that's fight or flight and look at things from it's perspective as a body mindlessly trying to survive regardless of what I want. Looking at it that way there's something very kind and likable in how determined our bodies and fear responses are at trying to keep us alive. I wanted to write that kind of inarticulate hero(ine)/victim.
Anyway, I'm at risk of ranting but thank you for feeling excited about the game. I'm glad I can put some time into it's fundamentals, the next release will be stronger? (I hope!)
Thank you so much. I made it in a really short timeframe so I didn't have time to do the prep work I usually like to do. I promise a full version will be out eventually.
I always like the notes in your games, I know it's supposed to be a demo, but it makes it feel more personal. It's interesting to see all the outcomes written out, too, the game becomes this really unique, curious document
Thank you so much. I'm always really happy when you read my rough betas, especially your feedback on saving you from yourself 2. It means a lot to me that someone appreciates my roughs.
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Really cool concept and *ahem* execution. I know it's far from complete but the details and soul that went into this is truly sublime. I love the little things like how the tutorial teaches the player a completely different kind of game, just like the machine. It feels like a primal security system trying its best to solve problems it can barely comprehend.
Thank you so much for your kind words.
This game was a WIP that I eventually plan to go back to.
Unfortunately after HFTGOOM it was a little too intense to work on so it is currently resting.
I’m glad that you still enjoyed it despite that!
The game is based on my experiences being like “wow I’m really upset and existing is hard but my heart keeps doing its best to keep me alive regardless of how I feel” and my desire to emphasize with those muscles and organs that keep fighting for us every day.
Poor DDOCEL0L51V and Sally ): It's a sad story, but I still want this to continue
One day I would like to go back and finish this, unfortunately it was rushed out before it was ready.
The reality is that I’m not sure how much longer I can continue to make games. Currently there are two games I became a game developer to make, one was hftgoom. The other one is the current one I am working on.
After I finish that one I plan to return to this and finish it though it might end up looking very different from this draft as I will be a different person at that point.
I am sorry to let you down a little but im running into the limitations I have as a person so I’m trying to prioritize what I can.
Take care of yourself! Make sure you stay true to yourself, whoever you become
hey this game has really managed to stick with me since i first played it (i think pretransition!?) I love the writing, and i really like the (literal and unwilling) weaponization of transfem bodies as a metaphor to process the way people can view us sometimes. I don't know if thats exactly how you meant it, but theres so much that can be done with this :) Its a really inspiring story/demo! thanks for making this!
This was really great writing and I felt it was funny as well as heartwarming and thought-provoking. I know it was a rough demo, but seeing your little dev notes peppered throughout added charm to it. But your writing is really amazing!
Hi, your comment really made my day. Thank you for being so nice!
I attempted to make a game in time for a bundle and failed after going through a bunch of concepts. I tried to finish this but fell into major roadblocks.
There was a game I started before this one which I am now close to finishing. I'm hoping to release it before June. After that I plan to go back to this game and finish it.
Until then, thank you so much for enjoying what is a really rough work in progress. I hope that someday I'll be able to show you the finished game even if it might turn out differently from the current one.
I'm glad I had that effect on you, you should feel commended for your effort! 😊
I don't know anything about game dev, but if it's like any creative pursuits, then always remember that tomorrow is a day closer to a completed idea. You will get there and I will hope and pray for your luck.
And even if you don't get there... What does it matter? Creativity is about creating. You've created, even if you haven't finished it. And that is better than to have never started at all.
I look forward to seeing this game finished though, even if it may be totally different. 🥰
I like the ideas and writing in this! Great cyberpunk vibes.
Thank you so much, it has a long way to go. I ended up having to post earlier than I was ready for but that's kinda the way it works sometimes. x_x
It do be like that sometimes. I'll be curious to see where it goes from here.
Thank you, it'll probably be really different from the original but I intend to post the whole thing and once when it's done.
I just played through this. I love the sense of time jumps as the weapons system, that you're only brought out during the fight/flight response, and always without time to explain what happened in the meantime, or the context of why you're here, right now; and the body you're riding is always unwelcome to your presence.
Thank you so much for this comment. This reminds me of why I really love this game. I plan on finishing it but I've been a mess.
I desperately want to love my body that keeps trying to keep me alive no matter how upset I get and this game was kind of a love letter to that. I'm really glad that you get it, I hope you will play the full version once it's finished, whatever form it takes.
I love that this basically takes the "I didn't ask for this" Deus Ex meme and turns it into a compelling exploration of bodily autonomy, technocratism, and the politics of self-harming. Very interested in the full release.
Thank you so much, I don't really know what that meme is but I get what you mean. I guess I just kinda felt that we have a lot more technology these days but everyone is just miserable and end up feeling helpless. If knowledge is power and we have access to unlimited information why isn't it helping? We are at the peak of access to tech that's unprecedented in history and we're all just kinda flailing around with it instead.
At the same time I wanted to try to learn to love the part of my brain that's fight or flight and look at things from it's perspective as a body mindlessly trying to survive regardless of what I want. Looking at it that way there's something very kind and likable in how determined our bodies and fear responses are at trying to keep us alive. I wanted to write that kind of inarticulate hero(ine)/victim.
Anyway, I'm at risk of ranting but thank you for feeling excited about the game. I'm glad I can put some time into it's fundamentals, the next release will be stronger? (I hope!)
Very compelling, I look forward eagerly to the full release!
Thank you so much. I made it in a really short timeframe so I didn't have time to do the prep work I usually like to do. I promise a full version will be out eventually.
:) I'm sure the full version will be great
I always like the notes in your games, I know it's supposed to be a demo, but it makes it feel more personal. It's interesting to see all the outcomes written out, too, the game becomes this really unique, curious document
Thank you so much. I'm always really happy when you read my rough betas, especially your feedback on saving you from yourself 2. It means a lot to me that someone appreciates my roughs.
Yeah, I love this too. I adore the feeling of the scrawls in the margin.
Thank you, I know it's not polished but I'm glad the heart came through.