This was heart-breaking and difficult to go through and I didn't even experience it myself. I am so sorry for everything you have been through and I wanted to say thank you for being here and for your art.
It took me years to play this, but today I did. It hurt to see your suffering (the part about retreating to nonbinariness broke my heart even though I'm agender), but I'm glad you're here and hopefully healing. It wasn't your fault. We humans need to do better.
This is the only narrative game I've ever finished, or come close to finishing, which is a tribute to the quality of the writing above all. A great piece of art
This game is great. I was shocked, I was speechless, I was sad and I feel empty. On top of the emotions, the silence and absence of sound made everything more intense and the very pretty pixel art made this a experience I will definitely not forget.
Thanks for sharing and I really hope you're better and everything's better now.
Clicked for the odd title. Stayed for the absolute raw story-telling. This felt so real there's no way it was made up. I hope life and yourself treats you much better these days.
such compelling and raw way to explain your experiences. This goes to show that you dont need anything fancy or spectacular in remarks of music or art to pull someone in.
I think this changed me in a way I can't describe yet. I'm glad you're in a better place than you were before. I can only hope that it continues to stay that way.
Struggling to come up with the right words to describe this experience. Very well crafted. It explored some very unfamiliar experiences. It explored some painfully familiar experiences. Some were both.
I'm glad I got the good ending first try. Not a lot of media can make me feel uncomfortable, but god reading those messages on the sugar website disturbed me. I hope the good ending is the real life ending too because I have lots of respect for anyone who can say such personal, traumatic things to a wide audience for the sake of spreading their story.
I opened Itch accidentally while trying to get to another site and i saw your game. At first, i was wondering what choices you would have made, then i asked myself, is this what the author wants?
I was uncomfortable, wearing your shoes, feeling only the tiniest molecule of the real feelings you felt. Your words are still stuck in my head (in a good way), trauma doesn't feel like anything, healing doesn't either. There's no dramatic music or fanfare, it simply feels like living, with all the baggage that it comes with.
Without even realizing, we later start feeling the pain/joy that comes with trauma/healing while looking at the past and comparing our lives.
After so long after you released this game, i can only hope you're genuinely fine and if you aren't, i hope life gets better for you, genuinely, from the deepest part of my heart, i wish you well.
Thank you for sharing this. Despite our differences in background, I find myself relating to your trauma and, to a certain extent, the ones who traumatized you. I think this was a perfect invitation for some self-reflection. I'm going to go do that now. Thank you, stranger.
I clicked play not knowing what it is. I played it till the end.
It might not be obvious, but to have someone being open like you did in this game - is catastrophically rare. I feel like I've been allowed to know something so private and gentle, that it almost felt wrong. But it's not.
It is so much to think about. Thank you for opening more of the world we are living in. I even think you changed me, I don't know yet how but in a good way.
I love this game cus all of the things that happened in here happened all to me exact same scenario when i was around 13. I have cried for hours playing this game cus it bringed up my past trauma of my rape and grooming and all that.
It is always difficult to live, when your inner world can't fit the reality. In most of the cases pursuing the goal to transform the reality into something more appropriate for you is completely pointless. It always causing the loss of resources, time and sometimes even yourself. And even reveal own emotions and thoughts to someone causes only pain as circumstances, eventually people just start using it against you to hurt you more.
We all in the same boat kind of. And nobody know what to do with all that. It is sad.
i came upon this 'game' on a whim, not knowing what it was. im glad i clicked it, and had an insight into what some peoples lives are like. my cousin recently told me they got trafficked, and this helped me understand their pain and what they went through. i hope and pray, that one day people like you can be honest and open about what you went through, and that people no longer have to be forced to do things like this to survive, and the people who do this stuff to you are punished. you are loved, and i will pray every night that one day you can be happy, and that you continue to fight through this.
I have a lot of similar yet different experiences. I hope making this game has helped you some. As a piece of art it is so visually interesting and gets it's themes across well.
This is so wonderfully done ! I got the good ending and it was beautiful. I appreciated this playthrough so much as som1 who is also trans, and has been in survival sexwork since highschool. It truuly is an isolating experience. There are many ways to describe & portray what it's like n none are enough to make up for how it really feels. It changes & disfigures yu in such unexpected ways. The title of this alone is so gutwrenching & I can truly see how personal this is to you even with so much information left out. The parts spoken about how transactions feel from the perspective of a traumatized sexworker was something that had me nodding in agreement . . . The points made about all the stigma, fetishization, etc were all so important to bring to light. . .
It is unfathomably difficult for us to speak on these topics, or to create / digest media on these topics, due to societal views & the mental labor of it all. You made this despite it all, you shared your story & have given a voice to so many who relate. You have reached many who may have been previously uneducated on the topic. You are fighting against the stigma and creating room for more passion, empathy, and awareness where it is needed. You are creating a space where you are so importantly seen and heard !
Thank you so much for sharing your story (โกฮผ_ฮผ) !
Taylor, I want to thank you for putting out this game. You are so, so strong for being able to do something like tell the world about your trauma. Your story is one I can't say I've encountered before. HFTGOOM is beautifully done.
I hope you can live any way you wish to from now on, and know that you are absolutely worthy of love- but you do not owe it to anybody.
Sorry if my phrasing sounds off, I'm not good with big words but I felt they were necessary here.
You are such a wonderful human being. Even if I have never met you and most likely never will, I can just tell. ๐ซถ
:)
TL;DR You're very strong. I enjoyed playing your game, and I'm proud of you for being able to share this. Thanks, Taylor. ๐ฉท
The world is a better place with this game in it. I'm glad I played through it. I'll probably play through it a couple more times to see all the different options. It's very well written.
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This was heart-breaking and difficult to go through and I didn't even experience it myself. I am so sorry for everything you have been through and I wanted to say thank you for being here and for your art.
It took me years to play this, but today I did. It hurt to see your suffering (the part about retreating to nonbinariness broke my heart even though I'm agender), but I'm glad you're here and hopefully healing. It wasn't your fault. We humans need to do better.
Thanks for making the game <3
Thank you, for letting me know this pain, and seeing its reflection in the choices of my past.
Thanks I liked it
This is the only narrative game I've ever finished, or come close to finishing, which is a tribute to the quality of the writing above all. A great piece of art
please make the thumbnail less dangerous for photosensitive people
Profound. Thank you for sharing, and please keep on going.
Thank you, Taylor.
This game is great. I was shocked, I was speechless, I was sad and I feel empty. On top of the emotions, the silence and absence of sound made everything more intense and the very pretty pixel art made this a experience I will definitely not forget.
Thanks for sharing and I really hope you're better and everything's better now.
one of y'all is gonna play this, and when someone asks what you're playing it's gonna be really funny. Tell me their reaction to the title.
i thought this game might let me learn something about my suicidal thoughts turns out i just want to kill myself more
- good game though
my trauma is different but this has inspired me to maybe make something about my trauma.
processing trauma is slow. you do little bits at a time. you uncover mysteries.
thank you for sharing yours. may we continue to get better. we'll never fully heal, but we'll live and learn to love again.
Clicked for the odd title. Stayed for the absolute raw story-telling. This felt so real there's no way it was made up. I hope life and yourself treats you much better these days.
such compelling and raw way to explain your experiences. This goes to show that you dont need anything fancy or spectacular in remarks of music or art to pull someone in.
Heartbreaking and earnest. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world.
I think this changed me in a way I can't describe yet. I'm glad you're in a better place than you were before. I can only hope that it continues to stay that way.
Struggling to come up with the right words to describe this experience. Very well crafted. It explored some very unfamiliar experiences. It explored some painfully familiar experiences. Some were both.
I learned a lot.
Thank you for making this.
Before I play, can you please give this game a less seizure-tastic thumbnail?
Honestly no idea why this was downvoted. It's as if people believe people with epilepsy don't exist or something. Thanks for bringing it up.
I'm glad I got the good ending first try. Not a lot of media can make me feel uncomfortable, but god reading those messages on the sugar website disturbed me. I hope the good ending is the real life ending too because I have lots of respect for anyone who can say such personal, traumatic things to a wide audience for the sake of spreading their story.
Thank you for making this game, I learned a lot
I opened Itch accidentally while trying to get to another site and i saw your game. At first, i was wondering what choices you would have made, then i asked myself, is this what the author wants?
I was uncomfortable, wearing your shoes, feeling only the tiniest molecule of the real feelings you felt. Your words are still stuck in my head (in a good way), trauma doesn't feel like anything, healing doesn't either. There's no dramatic music or fanfare, it simply feels like living, with all the baggage that it comes with.
Without even realizing, we later start feeling the pain/joy that comes with trauma/healing while looking at the past and comparing our lives.
After so long after you released this game, i can only hope you're genuinely fine and if you aren't, i hope life gets better for you, genuinely, from the deepest part of my heart, i wish you well.
wishing you the best as much as it means from some stranger.
Thank you for sharing this. Despite our differences in background, I find myself relating to your trauma and, to a certain extent, the ones who traumatized you. I think this was a perfect invitation for some self-reflection. I'm going to go do that now. Thank you, stranger.
I clicked play not knowing what it is. I played it till the end.
It might not be obvious, but to have someone being open like you did in this game - is catastrophically rare. I feel like I've been allowed to know something so private and gentle, that it almost felt wrong. But it's not.
It is so much to think about. Thank you for opening more of the world we are living in. I even think you changed me, I don't know yet how but in a good way.
If you would like, I can give virtual hugs?
If not, that's ok!!
Thank you for sharing your stoy<3
You are strong
You are brave
You are loved
You are not broken<3
an experience unlike anything I've come across on this site. thank you for making this
I love this game cus all of the things that happened in here happened all to me exact same scenario when i was around 13. I have cried for hours playing this game cus it bringed up my past trauma of my rape and grooming and all that.
It is always difficult to live, when your inner world can't fit the reality. In most of the cases pursuing the goal to transform the reality into something more appropriate for you is completely pointless. It always causing the loss of resources, time and sometimes even yourself. And even reveal own emotions and thoughts to someone causes only pain as circumstances, eventually people just start using it against you to hurt you more.
We all in the same boat kind of. And nobody know what to do with all that. It is sad.
i came upon this 'game' on a whim, not knowing what it was. im glad i clicked it, and had an insight into what some peoples lives are like. my cousin recently told me they got trafficked, and this helped me understand their pain and what they went through. i hope and pray, that one day people like you can be honest and open about what you went through, and that people no longer have to be forced to do things like this to survive, and the people who do this stuff to you are punished. you are loved, and i will pray every night that one day you can be happy, and that you continue to fight through this.
I have a lot of similar yet different experiences. I hope making this game has helped you some. As a piece of art it is so visually interesting and gets it's themes across well.
This is so wonderfully done ! I got the good ending and it was beautiful. I appreciated this playthrough so much as som1 who is also trans, and has been in survival sexwork since highschool. It truuly is an isolating experience. There are many ways to describe & portray what it's like n none are enough to make up for how it really feels. It changes & disfigures yu in such unexpected ways. The title of this alone is so gutwrenching & I can truly see how personal this is to you even with so much information left out. The parts spoken about how transactions feel from the perspective of a traumatized sexworker was something that had me nodding in agreement . . . The points made about all the stigma, fetishization, etc were all so important to bring to light. . .
It is unfathomably difficult for us to speak on these topics, or to create / digest media on these topics, due to societal views & the mental labor of it all. You made this despite it all, you shared your story & have given a voice to so many who relate. You have reached many who may have been previously uneducated on the topic. You are fighting against the stigma and creating room for more passion, empathy, and awareness where it is needed. You are creating a space where you are so importantly seen and heard !
Thank you so much for sharing your story (โกฮผ_ฮผ) !
thank you for making this game, its very moving. i hope the best for you and i extend all of my love
found this for a gbc hack i am excited to play
thank you for putting this out, words fail me but this was very moving
Trauma is too simple a word. Heart-wrenching.
Taylor, I want to thank you for putting out this game. You are so, so strong for being able to do something like tell the world about your trauma. Your story is one I can't say I've encountered before. HFTGOOM is beautifully done.
I hope you can live any way you wish to from now on, and know that you are absolutely worthy of love- but you do not owe it to anybody.
Sorry if my phrasing sounds off, I'm not good with big words but I felt they were necessary here.
You are such a wonderful human being. Even if I have never met you and most likely never will, I can just tell. ๐ซถ
:)
TL;DR You're very strong. I enjoyed playing your game, and I'm proud of you for being able to share this. Thanks, Taylor. ๐ฉท
anybody knows where I can buy the physical copy (cartridge)?
The world is a better place with this game in it. I'm glad I played through it. I'll probably play through it a couple more times to see all the different options. It's very well written.