I feel like, something most people who have been some kind of trauma have felt the same in an specific part of this game.
The feeling of emptyness and also, "How can the world go on, how can the world keep spinning after I have experienced this"
I find myself thinking this too often since I live near my abuser and see him on the streets "How can he live knowing what he did? How can he look at me and not feel ashamed? how is he able to live a happy life without trouble when I still can't forget the fear I felt when it ended, a fear I still can't stop feeling anytime I think about it, why am I the only one who has to suffer for HIS actions?"
yet often the answer is... this world its putrid, in a extreme state of decomposition. And the only thing that can help us it our loved ones helping us to distract us from this fact, and try to live like nothing. To be distracted from the bad thoughts and keep pushing.
And for all my victims here, I see you. And I'm sorry. You all deserved better, no one deserved what they went thru, no matter what they say, nothing justificates what you had to go thru. No one deserves it. I'm open for venting and hearing anyone, just feel free to text me anywhere.
Hey Tyler, I'm in a very bad state right now. I am not a sex worker but I am trans too, and some of the subjects of your game hit really close.
I really, really hope that you are in a better place now. I can't help but wonder if thigs have gone just a little bit different for you, guess those are the things we'll never know.
I do not know you personally, but I think I somehow connected with you through your game's messages. It was very nice to know that I do not feel these kinds of things alone in this world, even if we're very far apart and will never meet eachother.
That said, I also loved the artstyle; personal and cute, but also very crude.
I hope you can keep growing and overcoming every difficulty in your life, you definitely helped mine.
this is a really strange, honestly kind of evil thing to comment under someone's intense traumatic story. being a christian man doesn't mean you are allowed to be hateful, and say false compassions. reconsider what you choose to say and realize real kindness will bear sweet fruit.
There are many valid criticisms to sex work inherently due to its origin in exploitation, which is an incredibly nuanced topic that can't be defined as entirely good nor entirely bad.
However, being trans is a quality that is fundamentally a part of a person. It's understandable to have someone dislike their parents because they don't accept a part of them. In my experience, it feels like when your parents say they love you and care about you, they love and care about the idea of you as their child. Not accepting a core part of you, I feel, is fair grounds to dislike your parents. The way I see it is they don't love the person you are, but rather the child that you aren't anymore.
So I think it's harmful to say that this game is an argument against being transgender. It's a real experience and the issues that incite the initial need to go into sex work is because transitioning is expensive and typically looked down on in society. Regardless, the idea that a game is an argument against being transgender is just like, not accurate. It is a real life story of real issues and experiences that trans people go through. Just because trans people go through problems and issues that connect to being trans, doesn't mean we should be "against" the idea of transness. It's a core part of who people are, you can't get rid of that. Framing it as a "bad" thing only hurts more people and creates desperate scenarios where people get into harmful situations that result in horrible trauma.
I played this a little while ago and I just wanted to say I hope that you are doing well after all that happened to you. Your story was so powerful and I am glad I discovered this
If anybody is looking for more information about sex work and wants to better understand the material realities of it, please read this article. I hope the dev, and each of you reading this are doing okay.
i know it’s an autobiographical piece but i hope it’s okay to say that i feel seen.
thank you so much for making this. alongside the positivity our community places around sex work it’s so incredibly important to start conversations like these and speak candidly as this does. i really hope this can bring more attention to the importance of that
I'm trans in the opposite direction, but I've had similar experiences. It's impossible to talk about, because of the shame and the feeling that it was all my fault, that I chose to do it. This game was like a mirror for me. Knowing that other people have this experience of shame and blaming themselves and still are able to accept that it was traumatizing was just so validating. I definitely cried while playing it, and wrote down some of my favorite quotes. Thank you so much for making this, and I'm sorry. I wish healing and happiness for you.
I'm compelled to write this to hopefully help, but I'm not sure if it feels condescending or redundant. I don't share an experience like the game's, just some relatively minor sexual trauma. Worried that my perspective is unhelpful as a result. But I think the potential for a positive effect makes this worth posting anyway. Sorry if this is unhelpful (and for how late this reply is).
For circumstances like the game depicts, I don't think it's accurate to view this kind of thing as a choice that someone made. Personal or impersonal, there's a lot of coercion going on which warps consent. Having the choice between dysphoric misery and a chance at change isn't much of a choice, especially if there's an influence like Sally to "softly onboard" someone, convince them that it'll be fine. Doesn't mean accountability doesn't exist, but 100% lucid decisionmaking is far from a given in a tumultuous life. Desperation and fear and exploitative systems can and do coerce, and their blame should not be placed upon oneself. Be kind to yourself.
this is a beautifully made game. i wish i could find the right words to describe how i feel about it. all i can say is that it's a game that will stick with me. when the narration asks, "how could you let that happen to someone you love?" i could feel that pain. though the themes are heavy, i would definitely recommend this game to those who are able to handle it. there is pain and trauma here, but even within you telling the story there is strength. i hope you are doing better today, even just a little bit.
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I feel like, something most people who have been some kind of trauma have felt the same in an specific part of this game.
The feeling of emptyness and also, "How can the world go on, how can the world keep spinning after I have experienced this"
I find myself thinking this too often since I live near my abuser and see him on the streets "How can he live knowing what he did? How can he look at me and not feel ashamed? how is he able to live a happy life without trouble when I still can't forget the fear I felt when it ended, a fear I still can't stop feeling anytime I think about it, why am I the only one who has to suffer for HIS actions?"
yet often the answer is... this world its putrid, in a extreme state of decomposition. And the only thing that can help us it our loved ones helping us to distract us from this fact, and try to live like nothing. To be distracted from the bad thoughts and keep pushing.
And for all my victims here, I see you. And I'm sorry. You all deserved better, no one deserved what they went thru, no matter what they say, nothing justificates what you had to go thru. No one deserves it.
I'm open for venting and hearing anyone, just feel free to text me anywhere.
Hey Tyler, I'm in a very bad state right now. I am not a sex worker but I am trans too, and some of the subjects of your game hit really close.
I really, really hope that you are in a better place now. I can't help but wonder if thigs have gone just a little bit different for you, guess those are the things we'll never know.
I do not know you personally, but I think I somehow connected with you through your game's messages. It was very nice to know that I do not feel these kinds of things alone in this world, even if we're very far apart and will never meet eachother.
That said, I also loved the artstyle; personal and cute, but also very crude.
I hope you can keep growing and overcoming every difficulty in your life, you definitely helped mine.
this is a really strange, honestly kind of evil thing to comment under someone's intense traumatic story. being a christian man doesn't mean you are allowed to be hateful, and say false compassions. reconsider what you choose to say and realize real kindness will bear sweet fruit.
There are many valid criticisms to sex work inherently due to its origin in exploitation, which is an incredibly nuanced topic that can't be defined as entirely good nor entirely bad.
However, being trans is a quality that is fundamentally a part of a person. It's understandable to have someone dislike their parents because they don't accept a part of them. In my experience, it feels like when your parents say they love you and care about you, they love and care about the idea of you as their child. Not accepting a core part of you, I feel, is fair grounds to dislike your parents. The way I see it is they don't love the person you are, but rather the child that you aren't anymore.
So I think it's harmful to say that this game is an argument against being transgender. It's a real experience and the issues that incite the initial need to go into sex work is because transitioning is expensive and typically looked down on in society. Regardless, the idea that a game is an argument against being transgender is just like, not accurate. It is a real life story of real issues and experiences that trans people go through. Just because trans people go through problems and issues that connect to being trans, doesn't mean we should be "against" the idea of transness. It's a core part of who people are, you can't get rid of that. Framing it as a "bad" thing only hurts more people and creates desperate scenarios where people get into harmful situations that result in horrible trauma.
There's something very wrong with you, as a person. Take care.
I played this a little while ago and I just wanted to say I hope that you are doing well after all that happened to you. Your story was so powerful and I am glad I discovered this
https://proletarianfeminist.medium.com/a-socialist-feminist-and-transgender-anal...
If anybody is looking for more information about sex work and wants to better understand the material realities of it, please read this article. I hope the dev, and each of you reading this are doing okay.
i know it’s an autobiographical piece but i hope it’s okay to say that i feel seen.
thank you so much for making this. alongside the positivity our community places around sex work it’s so incredibly important to start conversations like these and speak candidly as this does. i really hope this can bring more attention to the importance of that
genuinely moving. hope you know despite everything else that's happened, you've left something beautiful behind.
great game, thanks for sharing
No hate for sharing my opinion but the game looks ugly as all hell.
Trauma isn’t pretty to begin with.
you don't really get to tell other people how to feel about your shit opinions. You get hate. Keep it to yourself.
Well screw you for this pathetic comment.
your the only pathetic one here budd
Your existence is, not me.
I don’t want to see people argue on this game’s page.
Please be kind.
i love you all. please stay safe
So much love for the dev for sharing their story, more or less. I wish the happiest life for them.
I'm trans in the opposite direction, but I've had similar experiences. It's impossible to talk about, because of the shame and the feeling that it was all my fault, that I chose to do it. This game was like a mirror for me. Knowing that other people have this experience of shame and blaming themselves and still are able to accept that it was traumatizing was just so validating. I definitely cried while playing it, and wrote down some of my favorite quotes. Thank you so much for making this, and I'm sorry. I wish healing and happiness for you.
I'm compelled to write this to hopefully help, but I'm not sure if it feels condescending or redundant. I don't share an experience like the game's, just some relatively minor sexual trauma. Worried that my perspective is unhelpful as a result. But I think the potential for a positive effect makes this worth posting anyway. Sorry if this is unhelpful (and for how late this reply is).
For circumstances like the game depicts, I don't think it's accurate to view this kind of thing as a choice that someone made. Personal or impersonal, there's a lot of coercion going on which warps consent. Having the choice between dysphoric misery and a chance at change isn't much of a choice, especially if there's an influence like Sally to "softly onboard" someone, convince them that it'll be fine. Doesn't mean accountability doesn't exist, but 100% lucid decisionmaking is far from a given in a tumultuous life. Desperation and fear and exploitative systems can and do coerce, and their blame should not be placed upon oneself. Be kind to yourself.
this made me think of myself
this is a beautifully made game. i wish i could find the right words to describe how i feel about it. all i can say is that it's a game that will stick with me. when the narration asks, "how could you let that happen to someone you love?" i could feel that pain. though the themes are heavy, i would definitely recommend this game to those who are able to handle it. there is pain and trauma here, but even within you telling the story there is strength. i hope you are doing better today, even just a little bit.