this was a really interesting medium to portray such a story in, it makes the whole thing feel very intimate. i dont think i have the language for how i felt playing this. thank you, this will stay with me for a while.
for how simple the graphics and the structure of the game was, it's incredibly in-depth.
im sorry you experienced the world like this. thank you for making this and sharing your experiences i hope you heal from the things that you've been through
It doesn't really matter what my views are on this game or your story, in the end, you were hurt, badly hurt, by the disgusting desires of men, by the broken system of capitalism, everything was pitted against you and it broke you.
To feel nothing, to want to feel pain, to not know if it was even rape you experienced, all these things are devastatingly underwhelming results of any kind of sexual abuse. The human mind is fragile, when it comes to sex, most animalistic men think of it as a fucking game, like some kind of arcade where all you do is score points and get highscores or some shit, but in reality the human mind seriously questions all the implications of sex, and this level of corruption and mysoginy and barbarism, followed by the most dystopian normalization of it, it is too much for the human mind.
i played this on my snes with super gameboy. i was testing different indie games to see how they look on real hardware, but only this one i completed or remember.
a form of interactive diary that wouldn't hit the same with a different subject. much more than just a song or a script or some scribbles, this is a truly new style of self-expression.
god i dont know how to describe how i feel into words after playing this im afab but i identify as genderless not that that matters but weve experienced the same thing in different ways playing this made me feel seen im sorry you had to go through what you did i hope your safer and happier now
This one will sit with me for a while. Thank you for making this. Edit: Got a lot of thoughts but I think that if I try to share them it'll just end up being a wall of text, so I'll just say: Thank you for making this. I was inherently opposed to sex work before this due to knowing how many people who do it are SA survivors and this didn't exactly make me more positively inclined towards it.
I can totally relate to Sally before she came back. I've been through family conflict trauma, with lots of unslept days of battle. Trying to find even an hour of sleep during christmas to new year battle with knife in hand. My older brother drug and porn addict, my both parents total alcoholics.
At the same time I was bullied in elementary school and more than bullied in middle school. 1v10 I would say.
I went into sex working once at 17 then a few times at 18 but my conservative mind told me to develop skills and don't do it just to live like a vegetable, but to grab an oportunity and leave it as soon as possible. I had boundaries that I only do blowjob and maybe receive one. Nothing less, nothing more. 2 years later (1 year after high school) I started to earn the same money per hour as technician as I did for blowjobs. I followed paths of stoicism and taoism. Nothing can hurt me anymore, even breakup with the girlfriend I got at 19yrs who saved me from my family and will help me create a new one. Still, I sometimes desire going an easy path of getting money through sex or getting transitioned and live like I always wanted to, but then I realize, repent and leave, knowing that it's a fake temptation. Now I begin to heal my family, but I know it's a long path. Probably will never happen, but there is always hope
I also remember having same kind of emotional reactions at 6-12 years of age as you did in being grossed out and all or wanting more and more sugar. My brother also did but through his whole life (he is 30+ now). It always crosses my mind. My reaction was beating myself with full power or scrathing myself to blood, not leaving my body. Learn and improve. Reject fake emotionally enslaved freedom of action that average mind implies on you, embrace real freedom. Freedom of thought and thoughtful actions
That is my advice to you and anyone who maybe skipped this in life. Study at least 100h of philosophy, especially classical greek, roman, chinese books and then practice it for life
This tore into my brain. Viciously touching. I hope you have all you can need now. I hope you feel more whole, take good care of yourself, and give yourself the space you need on hard days to handle this battle with patience. Best regards, Taylor.
Wow, your story made me very sad, but I understand that nothing is your fault or anyone else's, may your life be glorious, God bless you. amen Lord my God, I cried to you for help, and you healed me. Lord, you brought me out of the grave; about to go down to the grave, you brought me back to life. Psalms 30:2-3
The way you used the medium of a minimalist walking simulator-style game to convey your experiences and the emotions you were feeling at the time was just... incredible. I felt gutted playing through this. I don't know how much the words of a stranger on the internet really mean, but this is a very powerful game, and I'm sorry that you've gone through all of this, and for how difficult and painful it's been to talk about it to others. I hope that creating this game has provided even a little outlet for processing everything, and I hope that things will only improve for you. You are always worthy of love.
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this was a really interesting medium to portray such a story in, it makes the whole thing feel very intimate. i dont think i have the language for how i felt playing this. thank you, this will stay with me for a while.
for how simple the graphics and the structure of the game was, it's incredibly in-depth.
im sorry you experienced the world like this.
thank you for making this and sharing your experiences i hope you heal from the things that you've been through
It doesn't really matter what my views are on this game or your story, in the end, you were hurt, badly hurt, by the disgusting desires of men, by the broken system of capitalism, everything was pitted against you and it broke you.
To feel nothing, to want to feel pain, to not know if it was even rape you experienced, all these things are devastatingly underwhelming results of any kind of sexual abuse. The human mind is fragile, when it comes to sex, most animalistic men think of it as a fucking game, like some kind of arcade where all you do is score points and get highscores or some shit, but in reality the human mind seriously questions all the implications of sex, and this level of corruption and mysoginy and barbarism, followed by the most dystopian normalization of it, it is too much for the human mind.
I hope you are doing better.
i played this on my snes with super gameboy. i was testing different indie games to see how they look on real hardware, but only this one i completed or remember.
a form of interactive diary that wouldn't hit the same with a different subject. much more than just a song or a script or some scribbles, this is a truly new style of self-expression.
thank you for being you
god i dont know how to describe how i feel into words after playing this im afab but i identify as genderless not that that matters but weve experienced the same thing in different ways playing this made me feel seen im sorry you had to go through what you did i hope your safer and happier now
This one will sit with me for a while. Thank you for making this. Edit: Got a lot of thoughts but I think that if I try to share them it'll just end up being a wall of text, so I'll just say: Thank you for making this. I was inherently opposed to sex work before this due to knowing how many people who do it are SA survivors and this didn't exactly make me more positively inclined towards it.
"Ouch my Identity" a game. GG
I can totally relate to Sally before she came back. I've been through family conflict trauma, with lots of unslept days of battle. Trying to find even an hour of sleep during christmas to new year battle with knife in hand. My older brother drug and porn addict, my both parents total alcoholics.
At the same time I was bullied in elementary school and more than bullied in middle school. 1v10 I would say.
I went into sex working once at 17 then a few times at 18 but my conservative mind told me to develop skills and don't do it just to live like a vegetable, but to grab an oportunity and leave it as soon as possible. I had boundaries that I only do blowjob and maybe receive one. Nothing less, nothing more. 2 years later (1 year after high school) I started to earn the same money per hour as technician as I did for blowjobs. I followed paths of stoicism and taoism. Nothing can hurt me anymore, even breakup with the girlfriend I got at 19yrs who saved me from my family and will help me create a new one. Still, I sometimes desire going an easy path of getting money through sex or getting transitioned and live like I always wanted to, but then I realize, repent and leave, knowing that it's a fake temptation. Now I begin to heal my family, but I know it's a long path. Probably will never happen, but there is always hope
I also remember having same kind of emotional reactions at 6-12 years of age as you did in being grossed out and all or wanting more and more sugar. My brother also did but through his whole life (he is 30+ now). It always crosses my mind. My reaction was beating myself with full power or scrathing myself to blood, not leaving my body. Learn and improve. Reject fake emotionally enslaved freedom of action that average mind implies on you, embrace real freedom. Freedom of thought and thoughtful actions
That is my advice to you and anyone who maybe skipped this in life. Study at least 100h of philosophy, especially classical greek, roman, chinese books and then practice it for life
This wasn't what I was expecting but It's incredibly well-made. I hope you're doing okay Taylor and I wish you the best
This tore into my brain. Viciously touching. I hope you have all you can need now. I hope you feel more whole, take good care of yourself, and give yourself the space you need on hard days to handle this battle with patience. Best regards, Taylor.
That was really rough! I enjoyed the art and writing. Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable. I felt something.
I'll be honest. I didn't expect this when I first played this today.
I played some calm music as my background song, making it meaningful and heartbreaking.
... I can't express how many words I'm going to say as I type the words while slowly crying.
But I'll be honest again. It's a great game.
I hope you're doing great.
Thank you for making this, Taylor.
The way you used the medium of a minimalist walking simulator-style game to convey your experiences and the emotions you were feeling at the time was just... incredible. I felt gutted playing through this. I don't know how much the words of a stranger on the internet really mean, but this is a very powerful game, and I'm sorry that you've gone through all of this, and for how difficult and painful it's been to talk about it to others. I hope that creating this game has provided even a little outlet for processing everything, and I hope that things will only improve for you. You are always worthy of love.