I don't know how I ended up clicking on this game. But I'm grateful for having been able to experience this story. I can't even imagine what it's like to live through that, and yet.
It's stirred emotions I didn't even know I was capable of, that way of narrating it, of conveying it, of capturing your emotions on paper...
Thank you, thank you for being so strong. Thank you for being you.
As a cishet man I can't pretend to understand what you went through but there are still parts that felt deeply relatable to me; how asking money from your family makes you feel manipulative and guilty, your family wishing to help you but not knowing how (and despite not recognising how they're invalidating your pain), and ESPECIALLY how guilt and shame isolate you. And I too wasn't able to confront my feelings until I sat down and wrote about it, even crying as I wrote. Thank you so much for making this and I wish you and all the people who worked on this the best.
i am deeply sorry. i don't even know what should i say, i usually never cry. it takes a lot for me to cry and not break. i did cry this time. i played this game cause i believe you deserve the respect of another soul carrying the depth of your story, your pain. i've been through hell, so i recognize hell when i see it.
wherever you are right now, i hope you're doing better. i really pray for you to be doing better.
i'll keep crying for a while now cause it sometimes happen when i see someone who can mirror my pain.
the way my face dropped during the 7-11 scene. this game was so beautifully done all i can say is that i wish the best for its creator and anyone else reading this going through anything close to her experiences
...holy fuck. This spoke to me. A lot. I'm a trans girl who has been through a lot of self-inflicted sexual trauma online, a lot like the online section on the computer. I'm fortunate enough that I was never quite able to have any in-person experiences, but I did get close a few times. I won't pretend to know exactly what you went through, not only because everyone's experiences are different but because you experienced much more, and experienced things physically- but I know that I really felt for you while playing this game, and I think I can relate to a lot of the feelings you might have had. I'm not sure how much it's worth but I just wanted to tell you you're absolutely not alone in your feelings. Sexual trauma in general is so, so confusing. It's horrible, and painful, and pleasurable, and validating, and suffocating, and just leaves you so dull, like you barely remember most of it. I was the one who chose to go online every day back then, of course. I kept going back for more trauma. Was it self-harm? Addiction? Did I just like it? Was I being subconsciously forced by everyone? I have absolutely no fucking clue. Maybe all of them, I don't know. It's so hard to know that you made the choices that led to your worst regrets. Sorry for the paragraph, but... you're not alone, okay? You're not a slut, or a whore, or anything like that. Nothing you've done defines who you are. You're just you. You don't owe anyone anything. People love you, and even just from what I glimpsed of your personality in this game I can see why. You're a good person, and you deserve genuine love, no strings attached.
This was a beautiful game. Thank you for making it.
I have not gone through what you and the game's creator have, but reading your experiences has left a deep emotional impact on me. Please ignore the other person responding. Clearly, they need some attention and think that the only way they can get it is by being cruel to strangers on the internet. Your perspective matters. Thank you.
Okay- whore is absolutely an insult regardless of whether a person fits the definition or not. That's like saying calling someone the n-word isn't an insult because they're African American.
And if you think the game sucks? Cool, keep it to yourself. Someone poured their heart out into this and it encapsulates part of their life. So, with all due respect, shut up.
So you're allowed to state your opinion but if it's something you don't agree with then you just tell others to keep it to themselves and follow it with an insult? It's called freedom of speech if you don't like it CLOSE YOUR EYES.
Freedom of speech does not mean you are free from the social consequences of said speech. It just means you cannoy be legally prosecuted for speech. So yes, you are a trash human being, filled with trash thoughts.
To get re-indexed by itch I’m required to disable all payments on this game.
Previous this game included a steam key and download for the paid “HFTGOOM Bonus Pack” so that I could retroactively offer the pack to anyone who donated.
Unfortunately I will be ending the distribution of keys and downloads so that the game and be re-indexed. Afterward keys will be distributed through a new itch page that will be linked.
I’m sorry about the trouble, the mastercard situation has caused a lot of unintended chaos.
I don't know why, but the web gold version no longer works. Opening the index page just shows a blank screen. Considering that this game will absolutely be removed by itch.io due to the new rules, is there any possible way you could get a working standalone version outside of the gameboy rom versions?
Edit: I checked and this problem occurs with the versions uploaded to the internet archive as well.
I feel a desire to offer you as many hugs as you want. Your body is your own, and FWIW, I don't think you did anything wrong. You made choices in difficult situations, amid other people doing the same, and I don't blame you. I wish you happiness and contentment, whenever you feel like you want to experience them, if ever.
Thank you so much for putting this out there. I didn't travel the same path that brought you to that place of shame, but I've experienced it all the same. Hearing someone else having gone through it exactly the same way I did, and coming to realize what I needed to in order to survive was very touching. Again, thank you so much for sharing this. As a young trans man, thank you so much.
This was very painful and uncomfortable to play and read. I am terribly sorry for what you've gone through, and I hope you can find the help you need one day.
Reading what you said about Sally being strong and not giving a damn about sex, with all the context this game provided, I didn't perceive Sally to be a strong, unphased woman. It sounds like she's as traumatized as you are, not immune to what you both had to endure.
thankyou for making this, and im sorry for what you went through to the point of this game. i havent gone through what you have, and i wont try and claim to, or to understand it completely, but im glad you were able to finish this game despite the memories and i hope good things happen to you in the future.
Playing this felt like looking into a mirror in so many ways. The most startling thing was that, even until now, I was under the impression that the culture of SW I experienced was isolated, alone, and something I never even bothered to explain to others because they wouldn't get it. That's why your game is so poignant to me. The line about keeping the old clothes in case you needed them for work again was exactly something I've done too. I wish I could say I'm at the point of throwing them away, but financial fears always loom over me. I'm trying to rediscover how to be close to others in a non-transactional way. Thank you for making this for people like us to feel solace and for outsiders to feel for us.
It's okay to realise your anger without wanting to redirect that anger onto others. It's okay to want to protect people and notice your impulse would make things worse. It's okay to be wrong.
i dont know what to say about this game. it hurt in many places i didnt think it would. ive never associated myself with the transgender community, probably because of my own fears, but i just want you to know, anyone to know, that no matter who you are, nothing bad is your fault. nothing is your fault. you deserve to feel like you need justice, you don't need to live in fear. it wasn't your fault. i love you for this. being brave enough. anyone who was brave enough, and anyone who couldn't be, i love you. i love you all for being the way you are.
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I don't know how I ended up clicking on this game. But I'm grateful for having been able to experience this story. I can't even imagine what it's like to live through that, and yet.
It's stirred emotions I didn't even know I was capable of, that way of narrating it, of conveying it, of capturing your emotions on paper...
Thank you, thank you for being so strong. Thank you for being you.
As a cishet man I can't pretend to understand what you went through but there are still parts that felt deeply relatable to me; how asking money from your family makes you feel manipulative and guilty, your family wishing to help you but not knowing how (and despite not recognising how they're invalidating your pain), and ESPECIALLY how guilt and shame isolate you. And I too wasn't able to confront my feelings until I sat down and wrote about it, even crying as I wrote. Thank you so much for making this and I wish you and all the people who worked on this the best.
thank you for sharing this with us
i am deeply sorry. i don't even know what should i say, i usually never cry. it takes a lot for me to cry and not break. i did cry this time. i played this game cause i believe you deserve the respect of another soul carrying the depth of your story, your pain. i've been through hell, so i recognize hell when i see it.
wherever you are right now, i hope you're doing better. i really pray for you to be doing better.
i'll keep crying for a while now cause it sometimes happen when i see someone who can mirror my pain.
so thank you.
and take good care of yourself.
I'm terrified to play this game since I'm an emotional person
the way my face dropped during the 7-11 scene. this game was so beautifully done all i can say is that i wish the best for its creator and anyone else reading this going through anything close to her experiences
dope game! made my wee wee excited ! had all the stuff i liked
Please don't publicly express arousal at someone's trauma, that's very disrespectful.
you're going straight to hell when you die.
...holy fuck. This spoke to me. A lot. I'm a trans girl who has been through a lot of self-inflicted sexual trauma online, a lot like the online section on the computer. I'm fortunate enough that I was never quite able to have any in-person experiences, but I did get close a few times. I won't pretend to know exactly what you went through, not only because everyone's experiences are different but because you experienced much more, and experienced things physically- but I know that I really felt for you while playing this game, and I think I can relate to a lot of the feelings you might have had. I'm not sure how much it's worth but I just wanted to tell you you're absolutely not alone in your feelings. Sexual trauma in general is so, so confusing. It's horrible, and painful, and pleasurable, and validating, and suffocating, and just leaves you so dull, like you barely remember most of it. I was the one who chose to go online every day back then, of course. I kept going back for more trauma. Was it self-harm? Addiction? Did I just like it? Was I being subconsciously forced by everyone? I have absolutely no fucking clue. Maybe all of them, I don't know. It's so hard to know that you made the choices that led to your worst regrets. Sorry for the paragraph, but... you're not alone, okay? You're not a slut, or a whore, or anything like that. Nothing you've done defines who you are. You're just you. You don't owe anyone anything. People love you, and even just from what I glimpsed of your personality in this game I can see why. You're a good person, and you deserve genuine love, no strings attached.
This was a beautiful game. Thank you for making it.
booooo
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booooooooooooo
Sorry I'm confused, what's wrong?
i wanna screw the girl out of you
I have not gone through what you and the game's creator have, but reading your experiences has left a deep emotional impact on me. Please ignore the other person responding. Clearly, they need some attention and think that the only way they can get it is by being cruel to strangers on the internet. Your perspective matters. Thank you.
Thank you :3
This game made me want to give the character a hug and scream at the cruelty of society
I was honestly expecting worse but maybe I didn't get it.
Anyway good game, cool way of expreesing yourself
booooo this sucks. also if you did sex work whore isn't an insult, you are literally a whore
If you make a comment like this trash isn't an insult, you are literally garbage
Okay- whore is absolutely an insult regardless of whether a person fits the definition or not. That's like saying calling someone the n-word isn't an insult because they're African American.
And if you think the game sucks? Cool, keep it to yourself. Someone poured their heart out into this and it encapsulates part of their life. So, with all due respect, shut up.
So you're allowed to state your opinion but if it's something you don't agree with then you just tell others to keep it to themselves and follow it with an insult? It's called freedom of speech if you don't like it CLOSE YOUR EYES.
Freedom of speech does not mean you are free from the social consequences of said speech. It just means you cannoy be legally prosecuted for speech. So yes, you are a trash human being, filled with trash thoughts.
Booo, you suck
Thank You for making this
Hi everyone,
Just a warning.
To get re-indexed by itch I’m required to disable all payments on this game.
Previous this game included a steam key and download for the paid “HFTGOOM Bonus Pack” so that I could retroactively offer the pack to anyone who donated.
Unfortunately I will be ending the distribution of keys and downloads so that the game and be re-indexed. Afterward keys will be distributed through a new itch page that will be linked.
I’m sorry about the trouble, the mastercard situation has caused a lot of unintended chaos.
No problem, queen. Thanks for all your hard work!
I managed to create a custom page for the bonus pack and added a link to it on the bottom of this games page.
I’m now going to run away from the comments section.
I read every comment, it’s just replying to everything here can get intense.
For my mental health I prefer to take a hands off approach on the comments here.
I don't know why, but the web gold version no longer works. Opening the index page just shows a blank screen. Considering that this game will absolutely be removed by itch.io due to the new rules, is there any possible way you could get a working standalone version outside of the gameboy rom versions?
Edit: I checked and this problem occurs with the versions uploaded to the internet archive as well.
Hi Treysh!
I went ahead and got up a totally functional web version. It lacks instructions and a “grrrr don’t load this if you’re under 18” page.
I’ll be building those and setting it up on the main page of my site but for now there is a self-hosted web version that you can play here:
https://taylormccue.neocities.org/HFTGOOM_ENG1.1/web/
Feel free to share that link as it’ll stay there.
As far as .exe file that you could download and load on windows there is one available on steam here:
https://store.steampowered.com/app/2293660/He_Fucked_The_Girl_Out_of_Me/
It requires you be logged into steam and is banned in several countries but is the last storefront option that I trust right now.
The .exe there should work without steam.
Let me know what you need and I’ll try my best to get you an option like it since someone else probably needs it too.
I’m going to pass out now but the game is now self hosted on my website here:
https://taylormccue.neocities.org/
I’ll be doing more updates to get everything safe and hosted.
i just wanted to tell you that this inspired my spouse to finally make some work expressing their own abuse.
so, thank you.
I feel a desire to offer you as many hugs as you want. Your body is your own, and FWIW, I don't think you did anything wrong. You made choices in difficult situations, amid other people doing the same, and I don't blame you. I wish you happiness and contentment, whenever you feel like you want to experience them, if ever.
The fact that this game is gettin censored by Visa/Paypal/Mastercard says a lot about who they are actually trying to "protect".
It hurts so much.
Thank you so much for putting this out there. I didn't travel the same path that brought you to that place of shame, but I've experienced it all the same. Hearing someone else having gone through it exactly the same way I did, and coming to realize what I needed to in order to survive was very touching. Again, thank you so much for sharing this. As a young trans man, thank you so much.
honestly? i feel so empty. but i'm glad i played this
This was very painful and uncomfortable to play and read. I am terribly sorry for what you've gone through, and I hope you can find the help you need one day.
Reading what you said about Sally being strong and not giving a damn about sex, with all the context this game provided, I didn't perceive Sally to be a strong, unphased woman. It sounds like she's as traumatized as you are, not immune to what you both had to endure.
thankyou for making this, and im sorry for what you went through to the point of this game. i havent gone through what you have, and i wont try and claim to, or to understand it completely, but im glad you were able to finish this game despite the memories and i hope good things happen to you in the future.
Playing this felt like looking into a mirror in so many ways. The most startling thing was that, even until now, I was under the impression that the culture of SW I experienced was isolated, alone, and something I never even bothered to explain to others because they wouldn't get it. That's why your game is so poignant to me. The line about keeping the old clothes in case you needed them for work again was exactly something I've done too. I wish I could say I'm at the point of throwing them away, but financial fears always loom over me. I'm trying to rediscover how to be close to others in a non-transactional way. Thank you for making this for people like us to feel solace and for outsiders to feel for us.
i want to beat fucking sally
It's okay to realise your anger without wanting to redirect that anger onto others. It's okay to want to protect people and notice your impulse would make things worse. It's okay to be wrong.
i'm transfem and a victim of sexual abuse...this game made me cry so much. i identified strongly with your story. thank you for sharing this.
This was such a great game. Thank you, it's helped me process my own trauma
heartbreaking. artistic. stupendous
i dont know what to say about this game. it hurt in many places i didnt think it would. ive never associated myself with the transgender community, probably because of my own fears, but i just want you to know, anyone to know, that no matter who you are, nothing bad is your fault. nothing is your fault. you deserve to feel like you need justice, you don't need to live in fear. it wasn't your fault. i love you for this. being brave enough. anyone who was brave enough, and anyone who couldn't be, i love you. i love you all for being the way you are.
Thank you for being you.
Thank you, and sorry, and Keep Going