The world is a better place with this game in it. I'm glad I played through it. I'll probably play through it a couple more times to see all the different options. It's very well written.
This game was really perceptive. I've been traumatized though not as badly as you. This opened up my eyes and made me look into a world separate from mine. Some of this I can find relatable, though in my own way. Thank you for making this game. Truly. I hope you live a better life now.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I can't say I understand your struggles, I'm not trans, I haven't had sex before. Figuring out what I'm comfortable with and talking to other people about it has been and will be a struggle for me. But the way you describe certain feelings and memories hit incredibly close to my heart and describe how I feel about a lot of challenges I've faced in regards to my own sexuality and understanding of myself.
Thank you for making me think about perspectives like yours. Going through this game has made me think in ways I've never thought, and reconsider things I've seen online in a completely new light. I think playing this game has already changed my mindset for the better. Again, thank you so much.
For anyone reading this, if you struggle with your sexuality, your body or understanding yourself, you aren't alone. You may never be completely alright, but with every day and every happy experience you have, I think you prove that those struggles are worth it.
I made an account just to comment, because I wanted you to know, that this moved me. I have to admit, that I'm somewhat ignorant about the pain that trans people feel, but as someone who has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and has spent years trying to be a better person, I know that the pain we feel is universal, but so to, the love we can feel is also universal. I went down a dark road using substances to hide my true emotions, only to realize the greatest joys can't be replaced with money, drugs or cheap thrills. Thank you for this game, and thank you for your bravery and inner strength to tell your story, as painful as a process as that must have been. Live long, and prosper!
Beautifully done! It's horrible that these things are done to our trans brothers, sisters, and siblings. Developer, you deserve the world and more.Thank you for making this game <3.
I'm not trans but I used to 'work' as an "escort" when I was younger, and while the circumstances are different, I could relate to many things in the game. I almost never seek out media about this type of sex work because I feel like I couldn't bear to see it represented from a client's point of view/in a way that feels exploitative, it just hits a little too close to home. So I honestly never thought I would find anything that would make me feel seen as much as this game when it comes to this experience. The first scene is pretty much what happened the last time I tried to tell someone about this.
I could keep talking at length about all the things I could relate to, but that's not very interesting, so I'll just reiterate my thanks. Playing this game was painful because of my personal experience, but in a way that was still incredibly important to me, if that makes any sense.
this game has literally hit me like a truck, I do not identify as transgender myself, but I am a member of the LGBTQ community, and I do have transgender friends, it is depressing to even think about the fact that things like these, shown in your artwork are happening everyday. It truly is heartbreaking to witness, and no other media has ever made me as emotional as HTFGOOM has. As a native Polish speaker studying Linguistics (Mainly English), I would be more than happy to translate your work of art into my native language if you will, in hope that people of my country can experience this eye opening art exhibit, as it is an understatement to call it a video game. Best regards.
Meanwhile I’ve had to deal with years of censorship with everything to small organizations and newspapers demanding I change my title to getting deplatformed.
At this point I am so sick of being pressured to make changes and I’m done.
I’m not going to compromise anything about this game ever again unless I am absolutely forced to by a platform holder.
this game was amazing and eye opening, its enraging that our society would push you into such trauma just so you can get the things you need. I've only had to do sex work once and i was stupid enough to think it was just because the person loved me they were buying me things. but i always had access to hormones through the state so its terrible to feel like you have to do that just to get rid of gender disphoria. i love your art thank you so much for sharing your heart i relate to this hard in the ways that i can and empathize in the ways i haven't experienced. thank you.
Hi, idk if you'll read this but I hope life gets easier for you. I enjoyed your game and being able to relate to someone like this. Though I've never done many of the thing discussed in your game, I still relate so much to that feeling of being unlovable and empty. As one trans girl to another, stay strong sis.
Ive seen your tweets, and its heartbreaking. The hate this game recieved for not being porn is disgusted. You should never feel bad about making this game, absolutely never.
I don't know how I ended up clicking on this game. But I'm grateful for having been able to experience this story. I can't even imagine what it's like to live through that, and yet.
It's stirred emotions I didn't even know I was capable of, that way of narrating it, of conveying it, of capturing your emotions on paper...
Thank you, thank you for being so strong. Thank you for being you.
As a cishet man I can't pretend to understand what you went through but there are still parts that felt deeply relatable to me; how asking money from your family makes you feel manipulative and guilty, your family wishing to help you but not knowing how (and despite not recognising how they're invalidating your pain), and ESPECIALLY how guilt and shame isolate you. And I too wasn't able to confront my feelings until I sat down and wrote about it, even crying as I wrote. Thank you so much for making this and I wish you and all the people who worked on this the best.
i am deeply sorry. i don't even know what should i say, i usually never cry. it takes a lot for me to cry and not break. i did cry this time. i played this game cause i believe you deserve the respect of another soul carrying the depth of your story, your pain. i've been through hell, so i recognize hell when i see it.
wherever you are right now, i hope you're doing better. i really pray for you to be doing better.
i'll keep crying for a while now cause it sometimes happen when i see someone who can mirror my pain.
the way my face dropped during the 7-11 scene. this game was so beautifully done all i can say is that i wish the best for its creator and anyone else reading this going through anything close to her experiences
...holy fuck. This spoke to me. A lot. I'm a trans girl who has been through a lot of self-inflicted sexual trauma online, a lot like the online section on the computer. I'm fortunate enough that I was never quite able to have any in-person experiences, but I did get close a few times. I won't pretend to know exactly what you went through, not only because everyone's experiences are different but because you experienced much more, and experienced things physically- but I know that I really felt for you while playing this game, and I think I can relate to a lot of the feelings you might have had. I'm not sure how much it's worth but I just wanted to tell you you're absolutely not alone in your feelings. Sexual trauma in general is so, so confusing. It's horrible, and painful, and pleasurable, and validating, and suffocating, and just leaves you so dull, like you barely remember most of it. I was the one who chose to go online every day back then, of course. I kept going back for more trauma. Was it self-harm? Addiction? Did I just like it? Was I being subconsciously forced by everyone? I have absolutely no fucking clue. Maybe all of them, I don't know. It's so hard to know that you made the choices that led to your worst regrets. Sorry for the paragraph, but... you're not alone, okay? You're not a slut, or a whore, or anything like that. Nothing you've done defines who you are. You're just you. You don't owe anyone anything. People love you, and even just from what I glimpsed of your personality in this game I can see why. You're a good person, and you deserve genuine love, no strings attached.
This was a beautiful game. Thank you for making it.
I have not gone through what you and the game's creator have, but reading your experiences has left a deep emotional impact on me. Please ignore the other person responding. Clearly, they need some attention and think that the only way they can get it is by being cruel to strangers on the internet. Your perspective matters. Thank you.
Okay- whore is absolutely an insult regardless of whether a person fits the definition or not. That's like saying calling someone the n-word isn't an insult because they're African American.
And if you think the game sucks? Cool, keep it to yourself. Someone poured their heart out into this and it encapsulates part of their life. So, with all due respect, shut up.
So you're allowed to state your opinion but if it's something you don't agree with then you just tell others to keep it to themselves and follow it with an insult? It's called freedom of speech if you don't like it CLOSE YOUR EYES.
Freedom of speech does not mean you are free from the social consequences of said speech. It just means you cannoy be legally prosecuted for speech. So yes, you are a trash human being, filled with trash thoughts.
To get re-indexed by itch I’m required to disable all payments on this game.
Previous this game included a steam key and download for the paid “HFTGOOM Bonus Pack” so that I could retroactively offer the pack to anyone who donated.
Unfortunately I will be ending the distribution of keys and downloads so that the game and be re-indexed. Afterward keys will be distributed through a new itch page that will be linked.
I’m sorry about the trouble, the mastercard situation has caused a lot of unintended chaos.
I don't know why, but the web gold version no longer works. Opening the index page just shows a blank screen. Considering that this game will absolutely be removed by itch.io due to the new rules, is there any possible way you could get a working standalone version outside of the gameboy rom versions?
Edit: I checked and this problem occurs with the versions uploaded to the internet archive as well.
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anybody knows where I can buy the physical copy (cartridge)?
The world is a better place with this game in it. I'm glad I played through it. I'll probably play through it a couple more times to see all the different options. It's very well written.
This game was really perceptive. I've been traumatized though not as badly as you. This opened up my eyes and made me look into a world separate from mine. Some of this I can find relatable, though in my own way. Thank you for making this game. Truly. I hope you live a better life now.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I can't say I understand your struggles, I'm not trans, I haven't had sex before. Figuring out what I'm comfortable with and talking to other people about it has been and will be a struggle for me. But the way you describe certain feelings and memories hit incredibly close to my heart and describe how I feel about a lot of challenges I've faced in regards to my own sexuality and understanding of myself.
Thank you for making me think about perspectives like yours. Going through this game has made me think in ways I've never thought, and reconsider things I've seen online in a completely new light. I think playing this game has already changed my mindset for the better. Again, thank you so much.
For anyone reading this, if you struggle with your sexuality, your body or understanding yourself, you aren't alone. You may never be completely alright, but with every day and every happy experience you have, I think you prove that those struggles are worth it.
I made an account just to comment, because I wanted you to know, that this moved me. I have to admit, that I'm somewhat ignorant about the pain that trans people feel, but as someone who has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and has spent years trying to be a better person, I know that the pain we feel is universal, but so to, the love we can feel is also universal. I went down a dark road using substances to hide my true emotions, only to realize the greatest joys can't be replaced with money, drugs or cheap thrills.
Thank you for this game, and thank you for your bravery and inner strength to tell your story, as painful as a process as that must have been. Live long, and prosper!
this game makes me want to create and to think. thank you for this blessing in desguis
Ikr, really makes you think if it's a mental illness or a fetish lol.
cute how you have both of your sockpuppet accounts talking to each other
idk what you're talking about, dunking on you people is a cherished pastime online, you know, but anyways be quite cockpuppet.
I usually take a hands off approach to the comments section here.
My view is that part of making a game like HFTGOOM is being able to handle the response including negative responses.
That being said, this comments section isn’t a playground for you to just harass people for fun.
It’s fine to think I suck as a person or a game developer, it’s another thing to just continually return here to start shit for fun.
I'm crying while playing this game ngl😭😭
I don't have big words to share but thank you for sharing this game and your story. Brought me to tears how beautiful and real this is.
Beautifully done! It's horrible that these things are done to our trans brothers, sisters, and siblings. Developer, you deserve the world and more.Thank you for making this game <3.
Thank you for making this.
Thank you so much for making this.
I'm not trans but I used to 'work' as an "escort" when I was younger, and while the circumstances are different, I could relate to many things in the game. I almost never seek out media about this type of sex work because I feel like I couldn't bear to see it represented from a client's point of view/in a way that feels exploitative, it just hits a little too close to home. So I honestly never thought I would find anything that would make me feel seen as much as this game when it comes to this experience. The first scene is pretty much what happened the last time I tried to tell someone about this.
I could keep talking at length about all the things I could relate to, but that's not very interesting, so I'll just reiterate my thanks. Playing this game was painful because of my personal experience, but in a way that was still incredibly important to me, if that makes any sense.
this game has literally hit me like a truck, I do not identify as transgender myself, but I am a member of the LGBTQ community, and I do have transgender friends, it is depressing to even think about the fact that things like these, shown in your artwork are happening everyday. It truly is heartbreaking to witness, and no other media has ever made me as emotional as HTFGOOM has. As a native Polish speaker studying Linguistics (Mainly English), I would be more than happy to translate your work of art into my native language if you will, in hope that people of my country can experience this eye opening art exhibit, as it is an understatement to call it a video game. Best regards.
Hi Celery,
Right now, I don’t have access to my computer as I recently moved.
I’ve been using a steamdeck as a pc so please understand if my response is a little slow or wonky.
If you email me at:
steammccue@gmail.com
I should be able to get you everything you need to translate the game.
Warmly,
Taylor
Thank you for making this game
If it's alright, could you change the gif for your game's cover? I'm just worried about it triggering people with epilepsy.
No.
As for my reason:
The cover has been there for three years.
Itch has a gif system and it’s mouseover.
It’s a tiny image which is safer.
Meanwhile I’ve had to deal with years of censorship with everything to small organizations and newspapers demanding I change my title to getting deplatformed.
At this point I am so sick of being pressured to make changes and I’m done.
I’m not going to compromise anything about this game ever again unless I am absolutely forced to by a platform holder.
Respect.
this game was amazing and eye opening, its enraging that our society would push you into such trauma just so you can get the things you need. I've only had to do sex work once and i was stupid enough to think it was just because the person loved me they were buying me things. but i always had access to hormones through the state so its terrible to feel like you have to do that just to get rid of gender disphoria. i love your art thank you so much for sharing your heart i relate to this hard in the ways that i can and empathize in the ways i haven't experienced. thank you.
It's called bad decisions = bad consequences. So sympathy from me.
Hi, idk if you'll read this but I hope life gets easier for you. I enjoyed your game and being able to relate to someone like this. Though I've never done many of the thing discussed in your game, I still relate so much to that feeling of being unlovable and empty. As one trans girl to another, stay strong sis.
Ive seen your tweets, and its heartbreaking. The hate this game recieved for not being porn is disgusted. You should never feel bad about making this game, absolutely never.
LMAO, could say it was a trap and you can't fault people for looking for porn of his demographic, it's only natural to feel bamboozled.
I don't know how I ended up clicking on this game. But I'm grateful for having been able to experience this story. I can't even imagine what it's like to live through that, and yet.
It's stirred emotions I didn't even know I was capable of, that way of narrating it, of conveying it, of capturing your emotions on paper...
Thank you, thank you for being so strong. Thank you for being you.
As a cishet man I can't pretend to understand what you went through but there are still parts that felt deeply relatable to me; how asking money from your family makes you feel manipulative and guilty, your family wishing to help you but not knowing how (and despite not recognising how they're invalidating your pain), and ESPECIALLY how guilt and shame isolate you. And I too wasn't able to confront my feelings until I sat down and wrote about it, even crying as I wrote. Thank you so much for making this and I wish you and all the people who worked on this the best.
Simple as making better choices, 100% their own fault.
thank you for sharing this with us
i am deeply sorry. i don't even know what should i say, i usually never cry. it takes a lot for me to cry and not break. i did cry this time. i played this game cause i believe you deserve the respect of another soul carrying the depth of your story, your pain. i've been through hell, so i recognize hell when i see it.
wherever you are right now, i hope you're doing better. i really pray for you to be doing better.
i'll keep crying for a while now cause it sometimes happen when i see someone who can mirror my pain.
so thank you.
and take good care of yourself.
I'm terrified to play this game since I'm an emotional person
the way my face dropped during the 7-11 scene. this game was so beautifully done all i can say is that i wish the best for its creator and anyone else reading this going through anything close to her experiences
dope game! made my wee wee excited ! had all the stuff i liked
Please don't publicly express arousal at someone's trauma, that's very disrespectful.
you're going straight to hell when you die.
insane thing to joke about 😭
but kinda par for the course with the bigots
Bigots x Fetishists, match made in heaven!
...holy fuck. This spoke to me. A lot. I'm a trans girl who has been through a lot of self-inflicted sexual trauma online, a lot like the online section on the computer. I'm fortunate enough that I was never quite able to have any in-person experiences, but I did get close a few times. I won't pretend to know exactly what you went through, not only because everyone's experiences are different but because you experienced much more, and experienced things physically- but I know that I really felt for you while playing this game, and I think I can relate to a lot of the feelings you might have had. I'm not sure how much it's worth but I just wanted to tell you you're absolutely not alone in your feelings. Sexual trauma in general is so, so confusing. It's horrible, and painful, and pleasurable, and validating, and suffocating, and just leaves you so dull, like you barely remember most of it. I was the one who chose to go online every day back then, of course. I kept going back for more trauma. Was it self-harm? Addiction? Did I just like it? Was I being subconsciously forced by everyone? I have absolutely no fucking clue. Maybe all of them, I don't know. It's so hard to know that you made the choices that led to your worst regrets. Sorry for the paragraph, but... you're not alone, okay? You're not a slut, or a whore, or anything like that. Nothing you've done defines who you are. You're just you. You don't owe anyone anything. People love you, and even just from what I glimpsed of your personality in this game I can see why. You're a good person, and you deserve genuine love, no strings attached.
This was a beautiful game. Thank you for making it.
booooo
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booooooooooooo
Sorry I'm confused, what's wrong?
i wanna screw the girl out of you
I have not gone through what you and the game's creator have, but reading your experiences has left a deep emotional impact on me. Please ignore the other person responding. Clearly, they need some attention and think that the only way they can get it is by being cruel to strangers on the internet. Your perspective matters. Thank you.
Thank you :3
This game made me want to give the character a hug and scream at the cruelty of society
I was honestly expecting worse but maybe I didn't get it.
Anyway good game, cool way of expreesing yourself
I know right? Some people can't accept personal accountibility.
That isn't what I meant (I was "glad" that she didn't get raped because there was a trigger warning in the game for rape)
booooo this sucks. also if you did sex work whore isn't an insult, you are literally a whore
If you make a comment like this trash isn't an insult, you are literally garbage
So you agree with the, bravo
No
Okay- whore is absolutely an insult regardless of whether a person fits the definition or not. That's like saying calling someone the n-word isn't an insult because they're African American.
And if you think the game sucks? Cool, keep it to yourself. Someone poured their heart out into this and it encapsulates part of their life. So, with all due respect, shut up.
So you're allowed to state your opinion but if it's something you don't agree with then you just tell others to keep it to themselves and follow it with an insult? It's called freedom of speech if you don't like it CLOSE YOUR EYES.
Freedom of speech does not mean you are free from the social consequences of said speech. It just means you cannoy be legally prosecuted for speech. So yes, you are a trash human being, filled with trash thoughts.
And you're a woman of the, Temu variety.
LMAO, only coping seething whores would try to rationalize that- "I'm not a skank, I only cheated a couple dozen times!" 304s aaah moment.
Booo, you suck
Thank You for making this
Hi everyone,
Just a warning.
To get re-indexed by itch I’m required to disable all payments on this game.
Previous this game included a steam key and download for the paid “HFTGOOM Bonus Pack” so that I could retroactively offer the pack to anyone who donated.
Unfortunately I will be ending the distribution of keys and downloads so that the game and be re-indexed. Afterward keys will be distributed through a new itch page that will be linked.
I’m sorry about the trouble, the mastercard situation has caused a lot of unintended chaos.
No problem, queen. Thanks for all your hard work!
I managed to create a custom page for the bonus pack and added a link to it on the bottom of this games page.
I’m now going to run away from the comments section.
I read every comment, it’s just replying to everything here can get intense.
For my mental health I prefer to take a hands off approach on the comments here.
I don't know why, but the web gold version no longer works. Opening the index page just shows a blank screen. Considering that this game will absolutely be removed by itch.io due to the new rules, is there any possible way you could get a working standalone version outside of the gameboy rom versions?
Edit: I checked and this problem occurs with the versions uploaded to the internet archive as well.
Hi Treysh!
I went ahead and got up a totally functional web version. It lacks instructions and a “grrrr don’t load this if you’re under 18” page.
I’ll be building those and setting it up on the main page of my site but for now there is a self-hosted web version that you can play here:
https://taylormccue.neocities.org/HFTGOOM_ENG1.1/web/
Feel free to share that link as it’ll stay there.
As far as .exe file that you could download and load on windows there is one available on steam here:
https://store.steampowered.com/app/2293660/He_Fucked_The_Girl_Out_of_Me/
It requires you be logged into steam and is banned in several countries but is the last storefront option that I trust right now.
The .exe there should work without steam.
Let me know what you need and I’ll try my best to get you an option like it since someone else probably needs it too.
I’m going to pass out now but the game is now self hosted on my website here:
https://taylormccue.neocities.org/
I’ll be doing more updates to get everything safe and hosted.
i just wanted to tell you that this inspired my spouse to finally make some work expressing their own abuse.
so, thank you.