This was harrowing to say the least. I'm a trans woman myself, in college now. My own trauma is unrelated to yours, and yet I feel extremely seen in this. I feel a little less alone in the trauma. Thank you for making this.
Really, I read this as yet another cautionary tale about how bad college is. Lacking that and the transitioning treatments people can really save themselves thousands of micro-rapes a month.
god. ive never done sw but went through sexual trauma and abuse and the way the choices were laid out really hit so close. having to do things you don't want to just to please the other person feels awful and i feel like this game is just perfectly made.
it's uncomfortable and really just makes you feel so many things at once. it feels like looking in on something you shouldnt, but also like looking in at yourself and desperately wanting to stop it, but you cant.
i wish the best for you in your recovery and life. things are hard. nothing is linear. but do your best.
I just finished the Spanish version. I don't know what to say, this is wild and heartbreaking. With each line I just wanted to give you a hug and tell you how human I see you. We don't know each other but the way you just opened my eyes is wild. I'm glad you're in a place where you can actually talk about this.
Came across this while looking for porn games. Instead of horny I got someone's life story contained in a video game. I have never been able to relate to basically any of the topics contained in this game, but damn did playing it throw me for a loop. My perspective has widened
I... didn't count how many time I just felt the need to nope out and close the game, and how revolted I was by thinking people have to live through that.
Thank you for sharing your story. I do hope you fare a bit better, and than game will save some people from a similar event.
Heartbreaking. I felt almost like an intruder playing this. I can't relate to any experiences and yet it made me feel so much. It takes a lot of strength and skill to be able to depict your experiences like this. I hope you're doing good.
when i first clicked on here and saw 99% of people leaving essays in the comments, i was a bit confused. after playing to the end, i really understand it now. what someone else said of this game piercing their soul, really is the only way to describe the feeling from this game, and i'm a heartless bastard so that's saying something. i may never be in the position where something similar may happen to me, but this game resonates on such a level that where the player can feel the damage, and trauma caused. thank you for giving us all this unique experience i don't think anyone will ever see replicated to such a degree
This was unbelievably powerful, enlightning, moving and... human. Thank you so much. For what the comment of a random person on the Internet could be worth, I wish you all the best in the world.
Learned of this through NerdCubed, and honestly, I am glad that I played this game.
I can't say that I can relate to a lot of what happens in this game. I can say that the game made me open my perspective a good bit, in terms of trauma, sex work, transitioning and other topics. Helped me walk in shoes that I have never walked in before. Made me deeply uncomfortable in many places, but for good reason.
This game is a very, very good game, but one that can hit you hard. As one human to another, thank you for making this game.
Definity one I want to play, I am just a little scared to play it right now because my emotional state already being in not a great place due to being in a DV situation as a trans woman who only started to get help less than a year ago and currently dealing with DV where my abuser can easily take our daughter and leave to China because CPS won't do anything to protect my daughter being a very empathetic person I am not sure I can handle the extra emotions at this time, but will defiantly play it when I am more able to handle extra emotions.
I don't know how to express my love for this game. "This game pierced my soul" is the closest I can get to conveying my feelings towards it. The fact that it's a game, where every choice made is your choice, helps to drive home the emotional weight of the situation. I also greatly appreciate the ways the game uses the player avatar to communicate dissociation. I haven't experienced most of the traumas that this game discusses, but there were a lot of moments that hit home for me, and I am so thankful for the way you articulated these feelings.
I really, truly am glad I got to play this, and I hope the best for you.
Everything in this game is beautiful, not a single bit of it was made without soul. Reading and playing made me change some of my views in all that is talked in the game. My context is rather different, but the game conveys his message so... special? i don't know how to explain, but it's a very brave thing. I hope that, in the future, your bravery can create much more of this experiences, and that they help other people. Awesome game.
I have a different kind of experience to this, and your game kind of helped me go back to that memory again in a.. less hurt way? I don't know how to explain. I admire this game very much and the artstyle, how it's conveying this trauma- Thank you. I hope one day you can recover and allow yourself to be loved and want to love. <3
randomly stumbled upon this game, and i dont regret looking into it one bit. while trauma of this kind is hard to recover from, i hope one day it can be easier for you.
I don't have words to describe my admiration for this game. I hope one day youre able to escape from the brunt of the hurt and find the love you deserve. <3
I don't know if I can put into words how this game made me feel, except that I hope it helped you to make it. I hope that it could help you shed some of the shame, knowing that so many people see themselves in it and beside you.
As a game, it's excellent. It has wonderful art. While it was cute it never... took away from the feeling of the game, if that makes any sense. And the times when it dissolved or was less cute it felt poignant and deserved. I loved the moments of quiet within (looking at the vending machine, the gummies at the pharmacy) and how they contrast with the other parts. I love the simplicity and impact the games of yours I've played have. The title and its use is compelling, though distressing what it meant to you.
As a piece of art and connection, it brought me to tears. Trauma from any source, in my experience, never really goes away, but I can only hope it's eased its grip on you.
thank you for sharing your story. mine is different, but the emotions resonate all the same. trauma is complicated, and you described it perfectly. i feel like trauma is only seen as real when it is extreme, when it is obvious. but most of the time, it is quiet and just leaves you empty. it is done through social pressures and in subtle ways that blur lines. most of the time, it is questioned how much of a victim you really are, regardless of how you feel. really, how guilty is the offender? everyone makes mistakes, everyone miscommunicates. then you question yourself. it is always about making the person who hurt you feel better, and that you need to let things go. it is a painful, endless cycle. it is even harder when the people that have done the most damage are close to you, and people you cannot easily leave behind, if at all.
The enormous work that went into packaging and organizing your experiences into a small thirty minute box is very clear to me. Thank you for putting this much of yourself out there. I will never forget this.
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This was harrowing to say the least. I'm a trans woman myself, in college now. My own trauma is unrelated to yours, and yet I feel extremely seen in this. I feel a little less alone in the trauma. Thank you for making this.
Horrifying and Beautiful, I hope to see more of your work.
Really, I read this as yet another cautionary tale about how bad college is. Lacking that and the transitioning treatments people can really save themselves thousands of micro-rapes a month.
this brought me to tears as a transmasc whos gone through sa. i hope you heal from the things you dont talk about and the things you do too. much love
holy shit this is deep
god. ive never done sw but went through sexual trauma and abuse and the way the choices were laid out really hit so close. having to do things you don't want to just to please the other person feels awful and i feel like this game is just perfectly made.
it's uncomfortable and really just makes you feel so many things at once. it feels like looking in on something you shouldnt, but also like looking in at yourself and desperately wanting to stop it, but you cant.
i wish the best for you in your recovery and life. things are hard. nothing is linear. but do your best.
I just finished the Spanish version. I don't know what to say, this is wild and heartbreaking. With each line I just wanted to give you a hug and tell you how human I see you. We don't know each other but the way you just opened my eyes is wild. I'm glad you're in a place where you can actually talk about this.
Oh my god, what an amazing game. I will be reflecting on it for weeks. Thank you so much for creating it. I think I´ve learned so much <3
I don’t know how to respond to this. It’s definitely making me think.
I’m glad you told this story.
This was really moving and I am very glad I paid for it, hopefully you're able to do what you love.
Came across this while looking for porn games. Instead of horny I got someone's life story contained in a video game. I have never been able to relate to basically any of the topics contained in this game, but damn did playing it throw me for a loop. My perspective has widened
why were you looking for porn games
I don’t want to see people argue on this game’s page.
Please be kind.
ok
Thank you for sharing the traumas.You are so kind and brave. I really want to tell you that you deserve love. I hope you are feel a little better now.
Just finished the french version.
I... didn't count how many time I just felt the need to nope out and close the game, and how revolted I was by thinking people have to live through that.
Thank you for sharing your story. I do hope you fare a bit better, and than game will save some people from a similar event.
Heartbreaking. I felt almost like an intruder playing this. I can't relate to any experiences and yet it made me feel so much. It takes a lot of strength and skill to be able to depict your experiences like this. I hope you're doing good.
when i first clicked on here and saw 99% of people leaving essays in the comments, i was a bit confused. after playing to the end, i really understand it now. what someone else said of this game piercing their soul, really is the only way to describe the feeling from this game, and i'm a heartless bastard so that's saying something. i may never be in the position where something similar may happen to me, but this game resonates on such a level that where the player can feel the damage, and trauma caused. thank you for giving us all this unique experience i don't think anyone will ever see replicated to such a degree
This was unbelievably powerful, enlightning, moving and... human. Thank you so much. For what the comment of a random person on the Internet could be worth, I wish you all the best in the world.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really moved me and made me acutely aware of traumas I'd buried about my gender identity
Learned of this through NerdCubed, and honestly, I am glad that I played this game.
I can't say that I can relate to a lot of what happens in this game. I can say that the game made me open my perspective a good bit, in terms of trauma, sex work, transitioning and other topics. Helped me walk in shoes that I have never walked in before. Made me deeply uncomfortable in many places, but for good reason.
This game is a very, very good game, but one that can hit you hard. As one human to another, thank you for making this game.
Definity one I want to play, I am just a little scared to play it right now because my emotional state already being in not a great place due to being in a DV situation as a trans woman who only started to get help less than a year ago and currently dealing with DV where my abuser can easily take our daughter and leave to China because CPS won't do anything to protect my daughter being a very empathetic person I am not sure I can handle the extra emotions at this time, but will defiantly play it when I am more able to handle extra emotions.
I don't know how to express my love for this game. "This game pierced my soul" is the closest I can get to conveying my feelings towards it. The fact that it's a game, where every choice made is your choice, helps to drive home the emotional weight of the situation. I also greatly appreciate the ways the game uses the player avatar to communicate dissociation. I haven't experienced most of the traumas that this game discusses, but there were a lot of moments that hit home for me, and I am so thankful for the way you articulated these feelings.
I really, truly am glad I got to play this, and I hope the best for you.
Everything in this game is beautiful, not a single bit of it was made without soul. Reading and playing made me change some of my views in all that is talked in the game. My context is rather different, but the game conveys his message so... special? i don't know how to explain, but it's a very brave thing. I hope that, in the future, your bravery can create much more of this experiences, and that they help other people. Awesome game.
I have a different kind of experience to this, and your game kind of helped me go back to that memory again in a.. less hurt way? I don't know how to explain. I admire this game very much and the artstyle, how it's conveying this trauma- Thank you. I hope one day you can recover and allow yourself to be loved and want to love. <3
I come from a very different context in every way. But I truly appreciate what you have done, thank you.
randomly stumbled upon this game, and i dont regret looking into it one bit. while trauma of this kind is hard to recover from, i hope one day it can be easier for you.
I don't have words to describe my admiration for this game. I hope one day youre able to escape from the brunt of the hurt and find the love you deserve. <3
I don't know if I can put into words how this game made me feel, except that I hope it helped you to make it. I hope that it could help you shed some of the shame, knowing that so many people see themselves in it and beside you.
As a game, it's excellent. It has wonderful art. While it was cute it never... took away from the feeling of the game, if that makes any sense. And the times when it dissolved or was less cute it felt poignant and deserved. I loved the moments of quiet within (looking at the vending machine, the gummies at the pharmacy) and how they contrast with the other parts. I love the simplicity and impact the games of yours I've played have. The title and its use is compelling, though distressing what it meant to you.
As a piece of art and connection, it brought me to tears. Trauma from any source, in my experience, never really goes away, but I can only hope it's eased its grip on you.
Damn. That's a whole L tbh, I wouldn't let that slide.
That comment is an L
thank you for sharing your story. mine is different, but the emotions resonate all the same. trauma is complicated, and you described it perfectly. i feel like trauma is only seen as real when it is extreme, when it is obvious. but most of the time, it is quiet and just leaves you empty. it is done through social pressures and in subtle ways that blur lines. most of the time, it is questioned how much of a victim you really are, regardless of how you feel. really, how guilty is the offender? everyone makes mistakes, everyone miscommunicates. then you question yourself. it is always about making the person who hurt you feel better, and that you need to let things go. it is a painful, endless cycle. it is even harder when the people that have done the most damage are close to you, and people you cannot easily leave behind, if at all.
Thank you for sharing. I hope things are a little easier now.
Thank you for sharing.
Interesting art style
The enormous work that went into packaging and organizing your experiences into a small thirty minute box is very clear to me. Thank you for putting this much of yourself out there. I will never forget this.
You've changed how I see some things, this is going to stick with me for a while. Thank you, and truly I hope for the best for you and for everyone.
Couldnt stop crying. It takes courage to speak about this.
thank you very much. take care.
hey, i hope you're doing okay.
I don't know how to feel about this game...
This game will be in my thoughts long after I have played it. I hope you find peace some day.